So I've debated about replying to your post, but in light of your last post (in reply to Albus) I feel I must. Like all posts on the internet you can take these words how you will, as I have no way to convey the tone behind them other than telling you I am concerned for you.
While I honestly believe you came to this community with hopes of finding a new group of people to play a fun game with and hopefully become friends, things have turned out poorly. Whether you are or are not disabled in some way is not our business unless you choose to put it upon others to decide. If you are having troubles in school I recommend reaching out to your advisors/councilors about what is going on in your life. Perhaps you have a teacher or professor that you are close with and could talk to. Please don't bottle your feelings purely into the online world as we don't have a way to really help with what you may be dealing with. Most people in this kind of community either don't have the experience to help/interact with you, or they do and don't want to be reminded of what they themselves are going through. We are simply gamers here and nothing more. You mention wanting to be open with people that you could spend years with hanging out somewhere in here as well. While I do agree with you about being open, that is a process that happens with time, and in this case was too quick for others to grow accustomed to.
I hope you understand that I truly do wish the best for you in this world. If you are having any forms of suicidal thoughts please reach out to someone that can help you directly in your life. I found the site for the suicide hotline in the North Carolina region here:
Hotline List. I hope things get better for you wherever you go from here.
Best Wishes,
-Shadow