This is an apology:
Just wanted to express a few thoughts to anyone who still is reading this thread.
I really did not know what Hermertia was when I started applying. Coming from the other server, CraftyMynes, I thought my writing skills would be wanted, even needed, in Hermertia, to enrich it. That was silly because all of you can write. This is a lore server. I should've known . . . I underestimated everything and everyone. Y'all really don't need me, nor one, weird erotic book and a promise for more. You're fine, amazing actually, without me. I'm embarrassed, rereading my posts.
But I still almost want to be . . . argumentative. Like, I want to point out that I didn't exactly BRING UP the rape in the app, that it was in a link where you had to scroll down and read. But there's absolutely no point in nitpicking all the little things like this. Although I disagree with, and could counter, some of the things that have been said, it would be a waste of everyone's time. I can see that I truly did something to offend you all, and that all the debatable little points you've brought up are, no matter what, reflections of that. I am truly sorry for that offensiveness - my voice, stubbornness, attitude, outlook, everything.
You all never would have spoken to me unkindly if I hadn't done so first. I can see that by looking over other peoples' apps.
I will reapply in a different thread. I'm posting to this thread, against guidance, one last time, because I'm not ready to write my new application, and because this message is relevant only to the people who have read my old, dead-end thread.
My new thread will be completely disconnected from my old thread (you won't need to read this thread to read the other). It will be a completely new app. In it, I will separate lore and IRL (I learned that this isn't a standard set by lesser minds, but a standard set by people who want clarity and don't want to hyper-analyze everything posted), and also, maybe more importantly, I will not mention any overly personal information that could make people uncomfortable.
I'm not sure what I should do for my new app. My lore will probably involve souls, which I've already written about. I considered maybe having two souls in one body that argue, because then I could make some interesting dialogues, but I don't know. I'm open for suggestions regarding soul lore.
Please look forward to seeing my app within a week. I promise, I HAVE changed, and you will see it. So I can get on the server faster, I beseech you to lower your consideration and judgement of my first embarrassing, fiasco of an application.
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