Nicholas, thank you for being judicial and fair, as Biakko promised. It was a relief to me, to see you, an unmoving origin in the midst of all this fighting. And thank you Caesar, for your empathy.
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The beauty of community feedback is that it allows the community to offer suggestions and advice; I suggest pursuing some of those offered so far.
- Nicholas
I'm not sure whose advice I should follow. Most people suggest that I need more lore. I wasn't entirely sure what Caesar meant when he wrote, "Don't make historical claims about races/religions etc just be mercurian! (Our humans aha)," but I will assume he too wants more lore.
I wrote my lore, about the Kairatites, but then it was shot down as historically inaccurate by Gimpy III, the Kairatite diplomat. I have a solution. I will propose it later, though, for I have more pressing matters on my mind.
I was hurt by Celestine. I will throw some pathos at her, so that she and hopefully others will feel more welcoming. I already felt sad today, because today is my last day of summer break, but Celestine made it worse. I feel horrible.
The rape scene depicted in my story is male on male, and there is no physical altercation beforehand, only social manipulation. I hope that, already, this image is less disturbing than you originally imagined. Furthermore, I'm heterosexual, and I kept this fantasy in my head less as a sexual fantasy and more as a power fantasy. I don't fit in with other guys IRL, and I have been bullied. This was one of the reasons that I lost my mind and ended up in the mental hospital. My school is safe, physically, but everything else adds up. At the root, the problem would obviously have to be myself: Maybe I just have a shit personality. Also, I have anxiety around guys and I can barely look them in the eye. So sometimes I entertain fantasies where I'm fucking them in the ass.
I would never hurt a female. Females are the only people who are kind to me. I find it much easier to talk to females than to males, as they are very sweet. I have several female friends, and they are all beautiful on the inside and out, and I love them. I cannot tell the truth and say that I don't have my own rape fantasies involving women, though. This is natural for many people, and it's fine as long as said people don't try to achieve their fantasy in reality. As much as I enjoy rape fantasies, I also enjoy fantasizing about loving a girl a whole lot - actually that's not just a fantasy!
I hope this information will make Celestine comfortable with my settlement. I saw her face in a face thread, and she is very beautiful, and I don't want to scare her (or any other female) about rape anymore than she already must be.
As I mentioned, I don't have many friends, so I seek friendly social interaction online. An example of this is
/r/albacraft; if you scroll down far enough you'll see, in the distant past, my talents of being a leader and mayor.
Anyway, here is my proposal to Gimpy III to solve our Kairatite problem. Gimpy III, since you know more about Kairatites, both your version and my version, you will be qualified for this: I want to know how possible it would be to integrate both of our Kairatite lores somehow. My Kairatites have some creative features, like their strange reproductive systems, that could be a nice contribution to the accepted lore. This is totally your call Gimpy III. I could join you as another Kairatite.
If not, I would have to come up with a new lore, in which case I will probably start my application from scratch, using Nicholas's Application Guide, like many of you have suggested.
I must also apologize that my writing has been less good. I am drugged and sleepy. But this might be a good thing, because I'm not annoyingly assertive.